Friday, November 10, 2006
@2:23 AM
after a long fight and blood vommittin QnA section with angie i reali hope that im able to clear all her doubts. haiz come to think of it i do not blame her but rather i blame myself, at the first place im not fit to be the leader and i obviously did a sucky job. cos if not she wun even asked tis kind of questions. and well lata is goin to be my op le and there are so many things left undone! i reali wonder wat had i done so far? i mean bringin my team to such a stage? if reali u are to judge mi i think i wil get a zero.. not that im sad here or anythin i jus feel that i let them down.. by havin such a high hope which ultimately beig crushed by me i mean hai reali feel that i let dem down.. mayb at the first place i should not think too highly of myself and take up the post. i think mayb thru out the whole process onli im the one who is enjoyin it. reali feel noth but guilty and shameful in front of dem. wonder wat can i do to make it up. after havin a wonderful relaxin chat wit yi qi, she made me realise that i can choose wat i wanna see. it is true that there are alot of dark side of life but i can choose to see onli the bright side. and it oso made me think about the adv where a man had his son learn tennis and the coach told e man all the stuffs, the gold 90.3fm adv i think. and its so wonderful cos after jus elimination the bad stuffs its good! so i think its time i look at bright le so that my thinkin will be more on the bright side! its time i go shoppin for nike goods le lol.. but my onli conern and worry is my pw mates somehow i believe dey had a same feelin as me is jus that dey din wanna tel mi.
if i happened to see the dark side remind mi and make mi look at the bright side!
thx for remindin mi abt e stars it reali helped alot! cos u saw the stars for mi and i believe its beautiful up there.....
Another enjoyin day, thx =)
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